i'm not the type of girl who goes out and parties for fun. i'm not social enough. i'm not comfortable enough in my own skin. i'm not the type of girl who's the center of attention, who's aggressive or assertive, or the one who leads while everyone else follows.
i'm not the type of girl who turns heads, whether by looks or by wit. i don't like confrontations and i don't like to speak up just to draw attention to myself. i'm not the type of girl who has her pick of the boys, or even the type that has adults eating out of her hand by virtue of her capable efficiency. i'm not a good public speaker who can easily put anyone at ease. i'm not loud or reckless or daring.
i'm not the type of girl who likes to take risks or challenge the status quo. i'm not fierce or passionate or the type to leave that kind of lasting impression. i don't have a unique perspective on life, serene and at peace with being different from the world, knowing i am myself and that is enough.
i strive to fit in, to find a place to belong, to carve my niche and grow comfortable there. i just want to be able to smile and laugh and be happy enough. i don't need euphoria. i take what i can get. i don't demand more of the world. i just want to get by, to be secure, to do the best i can and provide the best i can for my parents and my children and my future. i am quiet and i prefer to stay in the background. i like to have friends and i like to be liked, but i am soft and easily persuaded. i am embarrassed and shamed, sometimes, but who i am and what i like, and shy away from making stances or speaking out. but i try to like who i am, and i try to be someone at least i can be happy with.
i'm not made to be a main character type of girl. maybe most people aren't. i think i'm okay with this.
i just need to stop dreaming about a prince charming if i'm not a cinderella.
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